A BOY TO A POET TO A COMMITTED LOVER!!!

A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness.

-Robert Frost

WELL, FROM THE ABOVE QUOTE, I WOULD RATHER SAY THAT MY LOVE SICKNESS IS RATHER MORE PROMINENT THAN ANYTHING :D… HERE IS SOMETHING WHAT HAPPENED WHEN I WAS IN COMMITMENT WITH THE SWEETEST GIRL EVER IN MY LIFE… WRITING POEMS WAS NOT AS EASY AS HANGING OUT WITH YOUR FRIENDS IN YOUR PASS TIME… ALL I HAVE TO DO WAS AN ATTEMPT TO START A POEM WHICH CAN BE LIKED BY ATLEAST A FEW BEFORE I COULD CERTAINLY HAVE A POET IN ME… SOMEBODY SAID THAT POETS ARE TRUE LOVERS OF ANYTHING AND PRAISE THEM TO THE BEST WAY THEY CAN… COME ON!!! CAN’T BE THERE ANYONE WHO CAN’T WRITE A POEM WITHOUT LOVING ANYONE :/… THE ONE I CAN’T IMAGINE WENT ON TO MY LIFE… WELL, WHEN I FIRST STARTED WAS WHEN THERE WAS A MAGAZINE TO BE PUBLISHED IN THE COLLEGE… WHY DON’T I GIVE A TRY THEN… LET’S THINK, THEN I STARTED TO THINK AND CREATED MY FIRST POEM “THE HIDDEN BEAUTY OF MUSIC”… WELL THE POEM WAS WELL LIKED BY MANY AND WAS PUBLISHED IN THE MAGAZINE… THEN I THOUGHT, WAS THERE A POET INSIDE ME, OR MAYBE THE LOVE OF SOMETHING INDUCED ME TO WRITE SOMETHING… AND SO MY JOURNEY BEGAN INTO THE NEW WORLD, WHO KNOWS WHAT WAS NEXT FOR ME… I WAS THEN INTERESTED TO WRITE MANY POEMS FURTHER, WHICH INCLUDED POEMS LIKE “SUFFERINGS OF LIFE”, “LEADING TO THE SOLITARY DEATH”,”THE LADY OF MY DREAMS” AND “THE WINTER DREAMS”… IT ALL DEPENDED ON MY MOOD WHERE I PLACED MYSELF… BUT WHILE WRITING THE POEM”THE LADY OF MY DREAMS” I IMAGINED A GIRL AND WROTE ALL THE QUALITIES WHAT I SAW IN HER IN MY POEM… HA HA HA!!! SOMEONE IN THE MIDST SAID THAT “THIS HAPPENS ONLY IN DREAMS, DON’T WORRY YOU CAN’T GET THAT IN REALITY”, AND THE WHOLE AUDIENCE BURSTED INTO LAUGHTER… BUT BEFORE LEAVING, I ASSURED THEM THAT I WILL GET THAT LADY, AND YOU PEOPLE WILL ALSO SEE THAT… THE POET HAD ALREADY PREDICTED ABOUT HIS FUTURE WELL BEFORE THERE WAS ANY ONE IN THIS WORLD… THIS DETERMINATION WAS ALMOST THERE IN MY HEART, I NEVER LET IT GO… THIS WAS WHEN I WAS IN MY 1^ST YEAR OF MY GRADUATION WHEN THE POET HAS BARELY STARTED TO EVOLVE…

WELL, THEN STARTED MY HUNT FOR THAT PERFECT GIRL IN MY LIFE, SINCE MY ASSURANCE WAS THERE AS A CHALLENGE TO MY FRIENDS… LONG BEFORE, I FOUND THE PERFECT GIRL, I WAS IN LOVE WITH ANOTHER GIRL, BUT COULDN’T HAVE THE COURAGE TO SAY HER :(, MAY BE I WAS TOO SHY OR I WAS TOO AFRAID TO TELL HER, CAUSE I THOUGHT WHAT SHE WOULD THINK ABOUT ME, BUT MY LOVE FOR HER NEVER DECREASED… THEN I THOUGHT THAT THIS WAS NOT THE RIGHT GIRL FOR ME EVER… IT WAS PROBABLY IN THE LAST YEAR WHEN I MET MY SOULMATE!!! :) … YOU MAY SAY A COINCIDENCE OR A GOOD LUCK SENT BY THE GOD FOR ME… BUT IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO REALIZE THAT… IN THE STARTING DAYS SHE ASKED ME WHETHER I COULD TEACH HER BENGALI OR NOT… WITHOUT ANY HESITATION I COMPLIED WITH HER… DIDN’T KNOW HOW CAN BE FATE BE SO LUCKY IN MY CASE… I TAUGHT HER CITING CERTAIN EXAMPLES SO THAT SHE CAN LEARN BETTER AND FASTER… BUT SUDDENLY, I FELT LIKE SHE WAS TAKING OVER THE ONE WHOM I USED TO LOVE EARLIER, AND HEALED ME BETTER AS I NEEDED A COMPANION WHO CAN BE WITH ME AND WHO CAN UNDERSTAND ME BETTER… UNNOTICINGLY, I started to feel an essence of LOVE WITH HER… EVEN IF I CAN’T TALK TO HER FOR ONE DAY ALSO WOULD MAKE ME FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE… I FOUND MY LOVE IN HER… BUT AGAIN THE SAME OLD ME CAN’T GET THE COURAGE AGAIN TO TELL HER WHAT SHE MEANT FOR ME NOW!!! EVERY NOW AND THEN, I WOULD SEND HER SOME LYRICS OF LOVE SONGS, BUT SHE TOLD ME TO WRITE A SONG FOR HER ONLY… DID SHE FEEL THE SAME FOR ME??? :/… LATER IN THIS DIWALI, WHEN I RETURNED BACK FROM BHUBANESWAR FOUND that she had TEMPORARILY WITHDRAWN HER ACCOUNT FROM FB… ALAS!!! I HAD MY POEM READY FOR HER TO GIVE A SURPRISE ESPECIALLY PACKED FOR HER… BUT HOW TO GIVE HER??? I HAD NO IDEA… MY HEART BEAT STOPPED… I TEXTED HER UP TO TELL “WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME, YOU KNOW I WILL BE BACK TO SEE YOU ONLY???”… SHE REPLIED “YOU DO LOVE ME A LOT, ain't it???”… I HAD NO WORDS TO SPEAK MUCH MORE THAN A HUMBLE “YES” TO HER… THAT IS THE WAY I FOUND THIS SO SWEET GIRL IN MY LIFE… TILL DATE I HAVE COMPOSED 3 POEMS FOR HER OF WHICH ONE OF THEM IS IN BENGALI… OF COURSE, I WOULD SAY IT TO YOU PEOPLE ONE DAY OR THE OTHER, THE POEM IS STILL WITH MY BELOVED, WHO HAS GIVEN ME MUCH MORE THAN I HAVE EXPECTED… A CHARM IN MY LIFE HAS COME BACK… THE GIRL AS I HAVE ALWAYS DESIRED, HAVE GOT IN MY LIFE… I HAVE FULFILLED THE CHALLENGE, BUDDIES!!! MORE THAN THAT, I LOVE THE GIRL THE MOST… GOD HAS REALLY BESTOWED UPON ME THE BIGGEST HAPPINESS IN THIS WORLD TO PRESERVE IT FOR THE REST OF MY LIFETIME…